my country needs to stop shaking -_- Srsly.
my country needs to stop shaking -_- Srsly.
i recently broke up with my boyfriend, and things got... final, around 2 weeks ago. i decided to be mature and not end up in a huge messy drama with everyone gossiping and all that; so, i've been very quiet about this whole break up, in the way that i think that if you were with someone, even if it didn't end well, you should just keep the good memories and learn whatever lesson you got.
with that in mind, and since I've only told some bits and pieces to some people, when i really felt like i needed to say something, this entry has no other reason than me venting.
but in the past few days, i've noticed something. I still miss him, yes, and there's a part of me that might even consider taking him back. The thing is, I realize just how much better off i am.
he was sinking and i was going with him. we just weren't a good match, and hadn't been for a long time, but i thought things would get better and that maybe, if i was good enough/loved him enough things would work out just fine.
They didnt. Now, looking back, i realize just how many things i sholdn't have let pass. I put myself second, third, even, in so many things that now i feel ashamed of not noticing when they were happening. i always said that i would never let a man dictate and change who I am, but i did. I let him stomp on me and my personality and it dulled me. broke me, too.
I didn't even paint my nails in bright colors cause he didnt like it. didnt wear purses because he didn't like them, There were SO many things I stopped doing because he didn't like; and so many things I started because he wanted me to be that way.
That's not to say I'm without fault at this, i did make mistakes; however, now i realize that i did not deserve most of the heartache i went through during this past year and a half. i came to expect fights once every month or so, and that just isn't right.
Now, I know I'm still not better, I'm still mourning the end of a relationship, however bad it was, so I know it will take some time, but i will heal, and i have faith that i will find someone who will love me, just like i am.
I have a pimple right in the middle of my forehead. It's HUGE; in fact, it is so big that it hurts to frown ;O;
It probably wouldn't hurt so much if I hadn't rabidly attacked it minutes ago, but oh well. PAIN.
*pokes it again*
It's like a freaking planet on my face.
Right. Something Dabu DID happen /)_-
We were getting ready to meet up with dude; we call dude.
Which would have been fine, if he had sold it to us. But he didn't. And he didn't have the decency to let us know befooooooooore we travelled in a smelly bus D: (dad said it was smelly cause the air wasn't circulating as often as it should have. I say it was a farty bus). Needless to say I was a little... mad.
I was all "IMMA SUE THE BASTARD >EEEEEEE" and it was lucky that he wasn't there. I might have attacked,
So, then it was walking time. X_X Oh LAWD. I can't feel my feet. Cause... we were kind of expecting to GET the car, so the origtinal plan was to go, do the paperwork and head back home. which, if things had work out, we would have began going back home at arouuuuund 1 ish.
But nooooooooo we started walking around and looking at car dealerships. IT kind of complicatedcause we were looking for some specifics. Smallish car, automatic transmision, air conditionig. and some random bits.
So. we were supossed to meet the dude at 10 am. Nothing happened. So we started touring the dealirships. at around 3 pm we were all Fuck this, let's find a way to get home (which was not going to bevery easy, considering that it's a holiday week and travelling is in great demand). we got into a cab (We weren't able to walk any more XD), and they drove us to the subway station.
BUT THEN, I found the adress of a dealership we hadn't seeen, that I saw a car I liked. Sooooooo we went there.
Aaaand to make a (really) long story short, we found a car there. It's a bit older than the one we were going to buy, but it's an awesome car. Fully equiped and in good conditions. :Dç
Tah daaah. Just likt that one, minus the jogging people besides it. xD
More on the trip later, I can't want to think LOL
ok, so today ny dad and i went car shopping: but... we went to another city. eight hours away: joy:
right now we're about to go meet up with the seller: its ten am and my feet want to diiiiieeeeeee ;o;
more updates to come. the day is juuuust starting, surely something 'dabu' will happen XD
This is quite possible the coolest thing ever :|
RIP Kitty :(
I have issues.
I am.... quite possibly the only person in the whole world that sees that poster and starts singing along.....
HIS NAME WAS JASON
HE WAS A SHOW GIRL
WITH YELLOW FEATHERS IN HIS HAIR
AND A DRESS CUT DOWN TO THERE!
Offered: Uterus and ovaries for money.
Take them and I'll pay you.
*curls up* ;OOOOO;
i've made a good share of stupid mistakes these past few weeks, but overall.... I'm good. I'm happy, and other than the fact that I'm mostly computerless for the time beingand people are beggining to gossip about me.
the boy nd i have been seeing each other for a month already, and things are going... well, they are going pretty well, actually. we had a bit of an issue a couple day's ago, but we solved it and things have been good so far. :3
of course, I got to deal with a bitch today. she's had a thing for the boy, and she began to talk to me today... it was awkward and i got upset. I'm usually very much in control. i don't like to cry, and i do everything in my power not to cry when people might look. i hate it.
to make a story short, this chick got jealous that not only i was dating ze boy, but that i'm getting along wiht his friends as well.
So she said that they just keep me around to pass me around between them. WHICH, btw, is not true. and i know that they don't think that, and I know that he doesn't think that, but considering how we started going out? yeah. It's a bit of an issue for me, and I'm sometimes insecure about that. Soooo, I left the library and went to his place, i was trying to let it go, but yeah. sniffles a plenteh. ugh. So yeah, he was really pissed off when he found out what happened.
so yeah. I'm keeping away from the bitch, and trying to make him not yell at her. I don't need anymore drama, to be quite honest.
can it be hugz tiem nao? (>T_T)>